One of the many reasons behind my recent hatred for commercial radio ...

So, if you haven't already heard, the Sydney based radio station 2DayFM has once again made an ass of themselves. Or, if I should be more specific, the Kyle & Jackie O Show, which is in the prime-time spot of 5/6am-9am every morning.

If you haven't heard about what happened this morning (this morning being 29 July, 2009) - from what I believe, Kyle & Jackie O (for typing sake, now referred to as K&JO) thought it would be fun to get people in for a lie-detector test, to reveal secrets about their sex lives, partying/drug habits etc. Which is all good and fair - IF, that is, you're of legal age.

But instead, for ratings sake (obviously), they got a 14 year old young woman on the show, with her mother. The questions started, etc etc. Then, a revelation to beat all revelations;

The mother then asked her daughter: "Have you ever had sex?"
The 14-year-old replied "I’ve already told you the story about this ... and don’t look at me and smile because it’s not funny."
After a pause she then raised her voice and said: "Oh okay … I got raped when I was 12 years old."
Sandilands hesitated before asking "Right ... is that the only experience you’ve had?"

Now, excuse my ignorance, but WTF is that? WHERE is the logic in putting such utter trash to air? How is it even LEGAL for this radio station to have a minor on the show, talking about things that she shouldn't even legally experience until she's 16/18 to begin with?

Further to that, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH THE MOTHER'S HEAD??!!! Her child, at 12 years of age, had been RAPED, and all she wanted to know was whether or not her daughter has had other sexual experiences or dallied with drugs etc. Excuse me dipshit, but how is that stuff even at all relevant, given what this poor child has been through?

Forget the fact that she (assumption) may of been sexually inexperienced when this happened to her, but speaking from experience, rape totally destroys ones perception of sexual contact (as well as mistrust in the member of the same/opposite sex - whichever member had caused the crime) .... Thus totally damaging her for life. NO amount of counseling, therapy, etc is ever going to repair that damage. And then, to top it all off, she has a mother who ONLY wants her 15 seconds of fame (and TOTALLY ruining her reputation as well ... that poor, poor girl), she now has the humiliation of this happening to her on live radio, which, if I recall correctly, is broadcast not only in Sydney, but in Melbourne and PERHAPS Brisbane also.

K&JO ... You should keep that in mind. Offering this young girl all the counseling, therapy etc in the world will NOT help her overcome this ordeal. She was raped, she told her mother about it, her mother has obviously done NOTHING (which is made obvious in the new article linked above) about it, and then to top it all off, it's all brought to light again on live radio, because her mother is a bozo and only cares about her other drug/sex history.

Listen, Mummy ... did you ever stop to think that perhaps this young girl's drug/alcohol use may of been cause and effect of such traumatic events happening to her? How is her drug use/drinking/sex life even at all relevant in the larger scheme of things, compared to being raped? Don't you think you should be getting her help and reporting the incident to the Police, rather than rushing her into a radio studio for a lie detector test and worrying about the other stuff? In my opinion, drug abuse would be the least of my concerns if my child had been through something so traumatic. The drug abuse would, in my opinion, be a given - an outlet to enable her to 'forget' about the trauma.

Three words - Epic. Parenting. Fail. You need to hand in your membership card to the mother's club; you're no longer required here.

As for K&JO, okay yes, they weren't aware of this girl’s history. But that's not the point. They could of had ANYBODY on the radio show, of ANY age and have the same revelation occur. The point is, Kyle's likening a CRIMINAL OFFENSE to that of something that pertains pleasure and enjoyment. His comment of '"Right ... is that the only experience you’ve had?" is completely unnecessary. It may be a knee-jerk reaction, but how can you liken rape to a sexual experience, when ‘sexual experiences’ conjure up thoughts of losing one’s virginity to someone you love, that sneaky first kiss with Bobby/Sally in 5th grade behind the toilets in the school yard etc. Not being raped at the age of 12, and subsequently your mother ignoring your obvious pleas for help … THAT is NOT a sexual experience.

I wonder if the perpetrator of this criminal offense heard the radio interview. I hope that if s/he did, they are shitting themselves with fear of their crime committal coming to the surface. I hope that they suffer, and they suffer severely for what they have done to this child. She is forever scarred for life because of this occurring.

As for Kyle & Jackie O, I seriously hope you reconsider the pathetic stunts you pull on your radio show. I am positive this is not the only radio skit you have done that has caused severe backlash. Kyle, you are a wanker of the biggest proportions (and no, I’m not just talking about your weight …) and I think the sooner you are off air, and out of the media, the better. ALL MEDIA, preferably. I think your poor ratings when the two of you hosted Big Brother this year should shed some light into your apparent ‘popularity’ … Give me Gretel any day.

In an attempt to win listeners and up your ratings, you’ve probably also lost a lot as well … so now you need to ask yourself the following question; was it really worth it?

I wrote this line, a million and one fucking times ...

"I won't feel any shame, I won't apologise, when there aint nowhere you can go.
Running away from pain when you've been victimised, tales from another broken home ..."

Okay, I admit ... I happen to like 'American Idiot' by Greenday. Normally, I despise them. I own I think 4 of their albums (I did say despise, didn't I?) I have American Idiot, Bullet in a Bible (which is the live version of AI), Nimrod and International Superhits - let's say I went through a random 'OMG I heart Greenday' phase - about the same time the rest of the world did when American Idiot was released. But otherwise, this band – particularly the lead singer, Billie Joe Armstrong – annoys the fuck out of me. I think it has something to do with his teeth. I shit you not. I have this thing with perfect teeth … ugly teeth are a turn off for me … Who wants to be making out with someone with a hideous looking mouth? My thoughts are that he’s what, 40 now? and STILL hasn’t managed to get his teeth fixed. How much is he worth again? They’ve been in the punk rock scene for a million years, sold a billion million albums, singles, etc … and he struggles to make an appointment with the dentist. It’s beyond me.

I don’t even know what got me wanting to listen to this album … I recently got a new computer, and because my laptop is actually a craptop and not even worth the power supply it takes to run it, it refuses to copy music to a USB so I can therefore put it onto the new computer. Maybe it’s jealous, sad that it’s being replaced? Whatever. It won’t cooperate, that’s the point I’m making. So, to kill some time while Jayden naps and I do housework etc, I’ve been copying all my albums to my iTunes again. Which has then inspired me to listen to my ‘old’ music (old as in, haven’t listened to it within the last 6 months, and probably won’t for the next 6 months either). So far today, I’ve listened to Red Hot Chili Peppers’ Greatest Hits album, all my Linkin Park albums, My Chemical Romance, and now Greenday. I even listened to the Wild Gold, Volume 5 album that I bought on impulse but never actually ever listened to until today. I was also reminded WHY I haven’t listened to these albums in so long. It just doesn’t interest me anymore. Maybe it’s because I used to listen to it constantly when I first bought the albums? But if that’s the case, how can I listen to my AFI, KoRn, Evanescence and Muse albums CONSTANTLY and NOT get sick of them? It doesn’t make sense. Nevertheless, I will always have a soft spot for ‘Wake Me Up When September Ends’ … I adore this song.

I think it may also have something to do with the stage of my life that I was at when I purchased these albums, and therefore listened to them. My Greenday phase was at the end of high school (isn’t everyone’s??!!), like I said, back when everyone ELSE loved Greenday too. Billie Joe mania seemed to sweep the nation for about 2 years … not so much now. Same with My Chemical Romance – I’m sure they are still HUGE in America, but it was really only their ‘3 Cheers for Sweet Revenge’ album that was big here … Not so much The Black Parade. Unless it was, and I just didn’t notice because I’d since moved on? Anyways.

Then we have my Nine Inch Nails stage. Don’t get me wrong, I love this band, but it’s reached the point where I can handle them in smaaaaallll doses only. Anything more than that, and I’m gauging my eyeballs out for relief. I think the pain with listening to this band comes with the stage of my life I was at when I listened to them (once again … high school). For those of you who were unfortunate enough to know me throughout high school know that I didn’t exactly have an easy time with it all … There were a number of things I was questioning about myself, and my sexuality was probably the biggest factor. I fell hard, very hard, for a close friend of mine, and decided that the best thing to do, at the time, was to tell her. So I did. This opened a whole new bag of worms basically. She doesn’t know a lot of this, and if she reads this, she’s gonna find out … if she doesn’t read it, no great loss. It’s irrelevant now, but relevant to this part of my blog … if that makes sense?

So, I fall for my friend. I tell her about it. She agrees that yes, we should make something of it, see what happens. We decide to tell friends of ours. To us, they reacted badly. To them, they didn’t. Looking back on it, it was her and I that completely flipped out about the whole situation. Our relationship lasted about three days. That’s all … it was doing our heads in, stressing what everyone thought about us. I thought I could handle it, looking back on it I realize I didn’t. Well, not as well as I could have. I was more than willing to work on the relationship, get it to where it needed to be. As I said, I fell for this girl like … I dunno, I’d never felt it before, haven’t felt it since (it’s not how it sounds, it’s really really hard for me to describe). But it was too much for her to handle, so she ends it with me. Her reasoning behind it is what killed me the most. “I dated you to see if I liked girls more than guys” … In other words, I was using you to see if I was gay, straight or bi-sexual. You can imagine what this did to me. I won’t go into the details.

Are you wondering what this has to do with Nine Inch Nails? Well, it was her that got me into the band. We shared a common love/obsession of Trent Reznor and his geniusness. After what happened with her, I listened to Nine Inch Nails religiously. It was all I listened to for about 6 months. I think my Mum knows the album just as well as I do. As a result of this, I can’t listen to their music without being reminded of this incredibly painful time for me. I don’t know what she went through, I can’t even imagine it. But I know what I went through as a result of everything that happened, and I strongly believe that what happened between her and I has shaped my mistrust of people now. I always wonder if the person I’m interested in, is interested me for who I am, or if it’s because they have ulterior motives and only want something out of me. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t actually BLAME her for this, I just feel that it has shaped my lack of trust in people.

After her and I split up, I went through this severe self-loathe stage … I absolutely hated myself. I tried to change everything about myself to win her back. Thinking that it was something I did or didn’t do, something I was or wasn’t … I changed the music I listened to, so I’d have something to talk to her about. I changed my appearance. Everything that there was to change, I did it. All because I just wanted her to like me. It may seem obsessive, maybe it is, but I can guarantee you that at LEAST 75% of you have done the same thing to yourselves to try and score you a date with that person you like … Am I correct?

But anyway … this is why I can’t listen to Nine Inch Nails. Too many painful memories. Should of just said that to start with hey?

Then we have my obsession with KoRn. This is a band that will never die to me. I love ALL of their albums. Their work is incredible. Johnathon Davies writes some heavy shit … rape, his family, his past … but they are all relatable in some form or another. Perhaps not in the specific content they are written in, but some aspects of the song, you can relate to. There are two songs I can listen to repetitively and not get sick of – Thoughtless and Dirty. Have a listen and decide for yourself. KoRn are another band that was mostly introduced to me by the aforementioned ex (if you could call her that?) … but I don’t relate this band to her so much as I do NIN.

AFI are next … What an AMAZING band. I don’t care what the rest of you think, but I love this band. So much so, that lyrics from one of their song is tattooed across the back of my neck – ‘por siempre’, from Love Like Winter;

“Read the lines in the mirror through the lipstick trace (por siempre)
She said, “It seems you’re somewhere, far away…" to his face”

Por Siempre means ‘forever’ or ‘for always’ in Spanish, FYI.

I’ve seen both AFI and KoRn in concert, and they are both equally amazing. I was almost one of those hysterical crying fans when I saw AFI live … but not quite. I managed to contain myself. My friends and I got to meet the drummer, Adam, after the show, and he signed my cousin’s arm and my concert ticket … That was amazing too. ‘

I could go on for ages about the stereotypical ‘how much I love music and can’t live without it’ shit … but I think 3 pages in a Word document is more than enough for you all to put up with!

When it comes to music, I’m pretty open minded. I’m not picky with my music, but there’s some stuff I just cannot listen to … like that HORRIBLE screamo, scream til your ears bleed shit. No thanks. I like my ear drums how they are. I’m terribly into dance and pop music at the moment, it’s hideous to admit, but I love it.

Music - it makes me happy, it makes me cry, it makes me want to dance … what more could you ask for?

This what boredom leads me to doing ...

So, it's 10.06pm on a Monday night ... I'm bored, Jayden is in bed, so I decided I'd create a blog ...

I know, I know .. I'll make one, make it all spectacular and fancy, love it for a week, and then completely forget about it and never use it again, or just won't be bothered maintaining it ... I'm sure with Terry (the other other Tez - he's older, so he gets the first Tez lol) being the tech-head that he is, he'll remind me to update it ... but that will be met with a 'yeah okay, I will' ... and then conveniently I just "won't get around to it" ... Ahhh, the joys of being lazy.

So, even though you all know who I am (otherwise you wouldn't have this link), I should probably give a bit of background information about myself ... It's all over my Facebook and my Twitter updates (yes - I am a social network whore - so shoot me!) but I'll tell you about me anyways.

Hi! My name's Theresa. I have a wife and three kids and I work in a button factory ... okay, that's a lie. I don't have a wife, nor three kids ... and come to think of it, I don't actually work in a button factory either. Crap. I've basically just lied about my existence, and you've only been here for a few minutes!

Let's give this another shot.

Hi! My name's Theresa. I'm 21 years old, and I have an adorable 2 year old little boy, Jayden. Jayden is the Moo in my blog title ... I have no idea how I came up with Moo from the name Jayden ... I think it came from his other nickname, Monkey ... Monkey-Moo (which is really Monkey Monkey Moo Moo Chops ... you can see why I shortened it) is one of his many nicknames ... remind me sometime and I'll give you the ever-extensive list of nicknames this poor kid has endured over his short life-span. I think Moo also extends from Dad's nickname for Jayden, which is Mooey ... such a cute nickname!

Anyways, I digress ... Jayden and I live in a swanky little 3 bedroom villa that's down the street from Mum & Dad's place. Which is really only Mum's, cos Dad lives in Wiseman's Ferry ... again, a story for another day. Please note that I use the term 'swanky' very lightly ... it's a nice little pad, perfect size for the two of us ... I am very proud to say that I purchased every item of furniture (bar the buffet unit, which was a present from Mum for my birthday) with my own money ... I never thought I'd be able to afford it, or that I'd make it passed a month in here ... but 6 weeks later (yes I know, only 2 weeks passed a month - no need to be technical) we're going strong. I'm already sick of trying to think of what to make for dinner each night, having to do my own washing up (I will NEVER take advantage of a dishwasher EVER again!) ... but hey, it's a small price to pay for having one's freedom.

So ... aside from dribbling on about myself - you'll hear enough of that later - I might ramble a bit about my brothers ...

First cab off the rank, is the older of the two youngest brothers, Stephen (Stuzz, Uncle Smelly, Step-hen ... take your pick). Stephen is 18 going on 13 ... I adore this kid. Although he can be a twat at times, and too much like my father to mention, I love him. I guess I have to, considering we are related right? *giggles* No but really, he is an amazing kid. Very down-to-earth, VERY amusing when you get him on a good day .... Just don't ever f*ck with him or his mates ... You don't wanna experience the anger from pissing this kid off.

Then, there's my darling little Daniel ... Daniel (Uncle DanDan, Deej) is 16, and about as camp as they come. He is, at times, like my sister instead of my brother. Steals my makeup, steals my hair products ... just thank God he's thinner than me, or he'd be stealing my clothes too! Daniel is very charismatic, very honest and VERY VERY entertaining. Unless of course, I'm the only one who finds him entertaining because I'm the only one who gets his jokes ... which are mostly movie quotes lol. We seriously have a movie quote for every occassion.

"I know you can be overwhelmed, and you can be underwhelmed, but can you ever just be whelmed?"
"I think you can in Europe!"

But anyways ... I'll stop rabbiting on with my nonsense for now .... I'm sure there'll be ample opportunity for that later!

Take care all.